It's been over 4 months since I last wrote something. I don't know what to really say. I feel like the whole world is about to fall on me. I just don't seem to be me anymore. I'm losing who I am. I thought I had good plans in life but in reality I don't have a clue on what I need to do. I have no plans for after graduation, nothing. I'm scared and it's really hitting me hard. I just want to have some certainty in my life but right now I have nothing for sure.
Nothing I do works the whole way. I'm starting to let my anger and anxiety get the best of me. I've repressed it for so long and now it's really hurting. I miss my old girlfriend every day. I'm starting to see the hole that was left and I just can't seem to fill the void. I have no love in my life right now, not just with people but with everything. I'm just going through the motions.
Not even Spinning.
