As we have come to realize I don't easily date girls unless I have a good thought behind it. I always feel like I can just show the girl I'm a good decent guy and I will win but a lot of times it results in losses. I recently met a girl who just graduated high school. Yes I'm 23 and I know it's a big age gap. She did introduce herself as a student at N. Georgia. So we begin to talk and I begin to like her. At first she was the one that was falling for someone. I could tell early on she liked me.
So 3 days ago she cuts off all loose ends with her ex bf. Then the next day we go on a date to the braves game, next thing I know is she still has feelings for her ex and that I'm the unlucky benefactor of failure. I don't even want to talk about it. I got lead on really badly and then I got screwed. They always say that it's not me but I know it was. If I was good enough then all the other variables would go flying out the window. I can't seem to close well. This girl was beautiful though and probably way out of my league, I just thought she was different and would see me for who I am.
Instead I am once again at the mercy of a female. How they get this upper hand all the time is beyond me. I fucking hate it though. I just want a good person as my gf and thought it was with this one. I was once again, as I have come to accept, failed with a female.
I feel so used and lead on. Confused a little as well. And most sadly optimistic things will be ok, when I know that my chance is over.
Spinning
